Not getting off a wait list for Vipassana was initially a sad experience & decided rather than DIY, I'd just feel out "the space between" in this unique, mindful state I had prepared to do nothing for 10d (including prepare food)

I called this mindfulness mode early in the week and then felt it became a rabbit hole exploring the space between meditation & movement by end of the week 🤪

I brought a magnifying glass this space between and discovering this seems to be an exercise in learning to put my Top 5 strengths at bay...

I gave myself one goal: to complete the audiobook for The Body Keeps the Score

My stretch goal was to publish a 1-page proposal

automatic ways of being

• do do do! (not a surprise really)
  • reading
  • history (esp of hardware design)
  • tech futures (esp Apple)
  • social causes
• ack other's presence (that automatic "hi")
• process-orientation
• efficiency
  • multi-tasking in kitchen (several hrs of focus preparing multiple meals)
• research & learning
• Top 5 strengths
  • strategic (#3)
    • Proposal Wheel
• seeing what is possible NOW
• documenting footsteps
• constant analysis & reflection
• self-abusive
• pushing myself beyond my limits (great for excellence, but there is a time to “pull back”)
• accomplishment (distinct from “listening for accomplishment”)
• attachment to constraints
  • The One-Page Proposal
• busy (the irony!) (no "time" for)
  • physical Maintenance and Care
  • financial Maintenance and Care
  • other things I have no space for